I have such a hard time understanding.....

Well, as yesterday, I was home sick again today. I slept most of the morning just to try and gain some strength. Tomorrow has to be a normal day for me. I go crazy sitting around here with no one to interact with and nothing to do! There is only so much the internet can offer!!! Not to mention I miss my preschoolers............a week-end without them is tough enough. They bring joy to my life and give me more reasons to smile. Especially when things are going tough.

It seems as though everything difficult is flying my way this week: fighting with Eric over custody of the boys, dealing with issues relating to my victimization, trying to make ends meet with the economy the way it is......and then being sick on top of that! And of course, there is Ray and some of the things going on in his life that I would like to just "fix"!!! He's been so supportive of me and I know it's difficult for him to sit back and watch me go from a $275,000 home to a trailer with a huge electric bill, but I'm happier. Praise God I've never been a materialistic person. Jerk Eric never gave me a dime anyhow and when he did pay attention to me, it was usually with his hand or cruel words from his lips. Of course, now he wants to play Mr. Kewl Guy b/c he knows his rank is in jeopardy b/c of the adultery and his forceful abusive behaviors. Oh well, just give me want I want and get out of my life and I won't take ya down.

Yes, I've learned to stand up for myself more than ever before. I've learned that if I don't do it, NO ONE will. And I sit back and look at the things Ray's ex-wives have done to him and it makes me want to take on his problems as well. Even though I don't want to be married to Eric anymore & I loathe him for everything he's done to me and put me through, I couldn't use his kids against him. That's not fair to my boys!! Sometimes people really need to stop and think about who they are actually hurting and in Ray's case...........the kids are the one's getting hurt. I am a firm believer in "reaping what you sow". I've see it happen several times in my life and I know that God takes care of His own. Just as with Eric, I know that those women will have everything fall back on them ten fold at some point in their lives. And that's sad b/c that means they will have pain in their lives. Truthfully, I believe it's already there....



Well, enough rambling from my mouth today. Can't ya tell I haven't interacted with another human since Monday?? LOL Well, other than Ray and the boys...........

Hope everyone stays healthy and that you don't catch this crazy bug!!

Home Sick....

Well, my day started out wonderfully. I've been battling a cold the past few days and felt a bit groggy this a.m., but showered and got ready for work just fine. I didn't make it a mile down the road when I stopped to get gas and immediately got nauseous. I didn't even have time to get gas I jumped in the car so fast hoping to make it home so I didn't have to throw up in public. But, I ended up tossing my morning coffee & bagel anyhow. I got home thinking I'd be okay to just change and go to work, but started heaving again so I ended up calling off. I have a fever now.....and I'm chillin' like crazy. I can't even lay down to sleep without the room spinning out of control!! Where is Dr. House when I need him........

Other than feeling awful today, things have been getting stressful again. It seems like everything comes flying at me all at once. There is a bit of good news and I'm not even sure I understand it but Brady made the HS Tennis team. Yeah Brady!!! Now, the boys has never played tennis in his life so we'll just have to see how skilled he really is (I know I don't know anything about the sport myself!!!!)

Well, off to fix some chicken soup. Maybe that will help me be able to lie down and catch a few zzzz's.

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Preschoolers Sharing Their Love....

Here are some photos of a few of the Valentine's Day Cards my preschoolers made for the local nursing homes.



They also made a few Xtra Large one's that I passed on to my mamaw, aunt, & Ray's mom, who are also shut-ins. They sure did have fun making them and I'm so proud of them for all the effort they put into reaching out to others.

Yes, even I participated!!

A Home For Wilson

Well, as hard as it is for me to let go of one of the pups, I have. Last night, Wilson left his mama and brother and ventured off to his forever home. A woman had inquired about him for her 7 year old son stating that they lost their Boxer back in September. A few hours later, I had an email from her husband stating he wanted Wilson for her for a Valentine's surprise. Of course, being the animal lover that I am, I made sure I asked the right questions and he seemed very sincere and responsible so I decided to let Wilson go. He was my fav b/c he was the cuddler and the one I had to help out after he was born b/c House hogged all of mama's milk!


I couldn't hand him over physically so Ray had to do that number. But I believe we have made a little boy and his mama very happy. I know I'd be thrilled of someone thought of me that much with such an impressive (and not so cheap) Valentine's gift. Now that is LOVE!! :o)

Resting up before meeting the new family

House has been running around the house whining a bit more than usual today and seems to be in search of his playmate but I am sure he will survive with Meadow Grace around to watch after him. Here are the last photo's take of Wilson before he left for his Forever Home yesterday. I know that Roxy is with him and watching over him just as she is Pugsley.

Okay Obama.......this is NOT kewl!!!!

I can't address him as President, and won't but now I'm even angrier at him!! He interrupted the most incredible night of television for the week!!! He's speaking during HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!! Shame on him!!! No one takes the place of Gregory House!!! Now they say that b/c of the address that the next new episode will not air until Feb. 16th!!! That's massive withdrawal in this house. I mean, hello???? we named our pups after that show!



In fact, here are a few excerpts from other House Fans on the message board: (I'm so glad I'm not alone!)


"Ok, Since he's new, someone needs to inform Obama that the President does not schedule press conferences during House. Why was this not included when he was taking his oath? Obviously someone was sleeping on the job. I mean, even my local news station knows not to interrupt House, no matter how bad of a storm we're having. They are allowed a small box, in the lower left hand corner."


"President Obama's advisors had better get on the ball! Let's fax our congressman and senators and let them know how we feel about this:)"

"This completely validates my reasons for not voting for him. "

Mike's Insight on the Stimulus Bill...

The dust is settling on the "bipartisan" stimulus bill and one thing is clear: it is anti-religious.

Yes, both the House and Senate bills have a provision that prohibits federal dollars for higher education construction grants to be used for:

"...modernization, renovation, or repair of facilities--used for sectarian instruction, religious worship...or a school or department of divinity; or in which a substantial portion of the functions of the facilities are subsumed in a religious mission."

You would think the ACLU drafted this bill...

During debate, Senator Jim DeMint offered an amendment to strike the provision from the bill but it failed 43-54, with Democrats voting overwhelmingly for this blatantly anti-religious provision.

What can we do? In the short term we can call our Senators and Representatives in Congress and voice our displeasure.
know it is much easier to hit the delete button on this email than to take the time to make a few calls or to make a contribution, I get that.

Before you do however, I urge you to try and answer one question: Why would Democrats add this provision about religion into a spending bill that they say is "urgently needed" to help our economy?

The answer is troubling and predictable. For all of the talk about bipartisanship, this Congress is blatantly liberal. Emily's List, radical environmental groups, etc. all have a seat at the decision making table in Washington these days. Nancy Pelosi and Harry Reid are in charge and they are working with an equally "progressive" President Obama (remember his voting record is more liberal than Ted Kennedy!).

Republicans and conservatives must rally against their agenda and propose new ideas ourselves.

This is the opening round of the Democrats' campaign for BIG government. We cannot afford to sit round one out, because if we do, they will only become more emboldened and their grab for power more audacious and damaging to our country and our freedoms.

Too much is at stake for Republicans to sit this one out on the sidelines.

Fighting for our freedoms,

Mike Huckabee

Finally, at last.....

I just have to share a little of this story with you because it has touched the inner core of my heart. I also don't want to get to personal since it is someone else's story. For a while now, Ray, my man, has been searching for his 21 year old son. Well, give me a computer and a few hours and I can find just about anybody (thank you Lord for this one). We had found him around Thanksgiving and last night after almost 19 years apart, they had their very first telephone conversation. Not just one, but two!!! I was in tears because you never know how these things are going to work out. I am just so happy for the both of them. God has opened a new door in their lives and I am just blessed to be able to share a small part of that miracle. It should never have come to the point that it did, but now the truth is out and they have the opportunity for such a great relationship. It is going to be so moving to sit back and watch the two of them bond and grow closer. It's going to be great to see Ray in the "dad" role as well. He's waited so long for this chance and it sounds like his son has too. Needless to say, I didn't sleep much last night because I just sat back in amazement at what had occurred. Without any details, they were talking within 2 hours of Ray just taking that step to contact him. I am so ecstatic for them.......so happy......and I also know that they need to be covered in lots of prayer for any oppositions that may come their way. It's obvious that others will be hurt because they finally have the relationship they were kept from having, but God can heal those wounds. Like I said, I just had to share this wonderful moment in time. And like a teen-ager myself, I'm just as excited to witness more of these moments between father and son.